You are standing at the ruins torpidly. People in uniform, policemen are flapping around, machines are working, reporters are darting in and out. You see familiar faces in the crowd: somebody has become stock-still benumbed like you; somebody weeps and curses no one knows whom; somebody searches either for bodies of his nearest and dearest or for valuable things.
The explosion occurred at night, you had a narrow escape. Somebody wished your house to crush, your family to die, you TV set to blink off. The question “What for?” is pulsing in your brain resonantly.
For you are a beast. For millions had sacrificed their lives for you and you betrayed their ideas. For you hasten steps every evening while passing by homeless beggars in order not to be late to your supper. For you convince yourself you are sleeping if you hear a call for help behind the window.
For you have almost forgotten your native language but consider yourself a Russian. For strangers have overflowed your country, they rob, rape and humiliate but you consider yourself a citizen. For your daughter is a whore and you consider yourself a father.
For you are ready to deprive your descendants of fresh air in order to live with comfort. For you are ready to lick strangers’ boots in order to be gorged. For you are ready to endure any outrage of establishment scums in order to be safe.
For nature is agonizing but you don’t care. For your Motherland is falling into evil days and dismembering but you don’t care. For you hadn’t care until your piggery was broken.
I appreciate those who have done it. They got used to consider people like you lackeys, freebies and humble victims. These people scorn you and they want to have nothing in common with you. They don’t want to submit to your government or to live under common laws with you. They don’t want their children to grow up like yours. Because you are a beast and your destiny is beastly.
Perhaps you say: “I am different. I donate alms, I love my Motherland and curse the government. I take compassion on nature and I have good children”. But later you would get a new flat, meet a new wife and buy a new TV set. And you would live in the same manner. Because you are a beast.